Today is my 33rd birthday.
I'm not announcing this because I want to get
a bunch of "Happy Birthday" emails - but rather
because I want to take this opportunity to
thank my mom.
Three years ago, after my dad passed away,
I came to the realization that although we
children might not always see eye-to-eye with our
parents (and in some cases such as mine,
move thousands of miles away from them),
they are the most precious thing
we have in our lives. Too often though, we
only truly grasp that after they're gone.
And we certainly never thank them enough or
tell them enough times that we love them.
But in those times when we do lose a parent,
we are often forced to look back onto our
childhood and teenage years and review them -
not through the smoke-colored glasses of
teenage angst and anger, but through the more
sober ones, tinted by adulthood.
And we see how much love and dedication our
parents poured into raising us, how much they
sacrificed, and how they traded their free and
careless lives against one filled with
responsibility, financial burdens, and a rythm
dictated by their kids.
My parents were travellers. Long before they
had my sister and me, they criss-crossed Europe
and Africa, and in the early 60s, they spent
3 years in South Africa, living and working
there. I grew up in a house permeated with
mementos from that time - a zebra skin on the
living room wall, a drum next to the sofa,
some antelope horns in the office, an ivory
instrument in the stairway, a leopard fur as
throw cover for the bed, and countless
ceremonial masks from various idigenious
African tribes all over the house.
Looking back now, I think that time in Africa
really shaped them, and moving back to Switzerland
made them miss it terribly.
But they gave it all up when they decided to
have children - knowing that their native
Switzerland would be politically more stable,
safer, and provide us kids with a better education
system.
I never thanked them for this sacrifice. As
a matter of fact, it never occured to me
until 3 years ago. I will never have the
chance to thank my dad, but I do have the
chance to thank my mom.
So, mom - whether you happen to read this or not: Thanks
for making this sacrifice. Thank you for those
hours of pain and labor you went through
33 years ago to bring me into this
world. And thanks for taking care of me for the
20 years after that.
For worrying; for telling
me "no" when I was about to do something stupid;
and for saying "well done" when I came home
with a good grade. For cooking all those
delightful meals I wish I could replica, but
know I never truly will. For knitting until the
wee hours of the morning to make me a new
doll, after I had lost my old one at the store
and shed those bitter tears only a 3-year old is
capable of. And for letting me take all those
"stray" cats home, feed them, and then quietly return them
back to their proper homes.
Thanks for all those moments of intense happiness
you gave me and all the things you so selflessly
gave up to make them happen.
I don't know if I'll ever be able to repay you.
But for anybody out there reading this - take
a minute to pick up the phone, call your
parents and simply tell them how much you love
them.
It's the least you can do.
And as a foot note: Happy Birthday to
my friend
Luke. How ironic that you posted
this image...
August 18, 2004
Jake's
recent
amusing post on the perils of looking at
your referral log prompted me to do the same.
By far the most referrals came in from Google
on the search term
nmi parity check -
a subject of course I've been writing
about for a few years now.
Curiously though, the second largest group
was
in reference to this image:
I'm honestly puzzled. I have no idea why this
image rates so high in Google. It's not even
real lightning.
I took the pic of Lake Powell (AZ) about 12 years
ago, as I was camping on the lake and a storm
started brewing. Of course I ran out of film
before the true lightning show began, but years
later, in my first Photoshop class, I decided
to put the lightning back in there. That I could
make it hit the power pole and splash with
sparks was an added benefit (and a creative
liberty I took).
But why oh why would Google pick up on *this*
image and not any other one? Ahhhh - the mystery
of search engines...
August 12, 2004
Life is monstrous in its cruelty.
Charly, I will miss you and think of you always.
August 10, 2004
This is cool:
people create new animals with Photoshop. Link via
Jake.
Also - thumbs up for
Dane's new blog design. Nice job, man.
And - oh, yeah - here's a good reason to live
in Central Oregon: the evening light shows.
August 8, 2004
Log homes are the stuff dreams are made
of. Who wouldn't want to live in one?
They symbolize ruggedness and the outdoor spirit -
the very essence of the place we live in -
and yet a lot of today's log homes have a
definite air of sophistication about them.
One of Central Oregon's most glorious log
homes has just recently been finished, and
I had the chance to go out to the Crosswater
Golf Community and photograph the mansion.
Take a look at
the resulting images. Would
*you* want to live
here?
August 3, 2004
Victoria has a secret allright.
And a ... uhmm.... weird one at that.
So I go to Victoria's Secret today, and they
give me their "Fall Preview" catalog. As I
leisurely leaf through it, something catches
my eye.
...Is it really? ... Could it be?
Nooo ...
But after some closer inspection, I've
positively determined that it indeed is:
They Photoshopped the cleavage of
one of their models.
Take a look at the picture below, everybody:
Now am I hallucinating or did they actually
reconstruct the cleavage part to seem less
... supple? The skin tone and shading look
flat and quite different from the rest of
her skin.
To be honest - I've suspected VS digitally
manipulating their models for quite some
time (I mean outside the softening filters
and blemish removal). There was this cover
where the model quite obviously had a little
bit of fat (if you can call it that) removed
from under her arm, and if you've ever seen
their lingerie catalog from last year, you'll
have noticed that they've blurred any ever
so tiny nipple in sight.
The point however is - girls, *this* is what
we have to live up to?
August 2, 2004
Jake
has a
searing comment today about Deschutes
County Sheriff Les Stiles' move to impose
quotas ... oops, performance standards
on his deputies.
You wanna know *my* two cents?
Well, the Sheriff's
a corrupt asshole (yes, that's right,
I said it - I just hope now I can get internet
access in jail...), The Bulletin is a right-wing
media whore (did they *ever* publish any stories
dealing with the huge world-wide anti-war protests
when the Iraq war started? Sure - on the last page
of the paper, in a tiny 4 x 2 inch hole...), and together, they have the
power to intimidate the locals into thinking
*their way*...
Makes me wanna move back to Bay-Area-hippie-land,
where at least people were critical enough
to call it bullshit when they saw bullshit ...
Thank goodness for Barney.
August 1, 2004
Last night was a Blue Moon - and I thought this would be a good opportunity to go photograph the full moon.
It was more difficult than I thought it would be - the moon moves considerably faster than a casual observation leads one to believe, and unless you have fast exposure times, small apertures and a high ISO, the image won't be razorsharp.
So I'm gonna need to practice some more - but for now, this is an ok picture: